YOU DIE COMPLETELY

Dear friends,

In the East people think that they don’t die completely and they reborn with their essentials intact.

But this is not true. You die completely. You, as what you are now, will be dead completely when you die. Your body dies, your education, your assets, your business, your status, your pride, your relations, your friends, everything dies, your skills, your talents, your knowledge all dies.

So what else is remaining? Or even if something is remaining, what you have to do with it?

You die completely, that is the truth.

So accept it and rise to live it. See the fact, accept the fact. After death whatever is remaining, is remaining with others only. Others may remember your thoughts, deeds, feelings, your body, your actions etc., but for you, you are dead completely. Remember it.

So this is the fear of everybody and everything. This fear is valid. This fear has a truth behind it.

So, now, what is that OSHO talks about, what is that eternity?, what is that deathless?

If you look closely on OSHO and all real masters sayings, you can see one thing: that they say there is no death but they add that in the first place there is no birth itself.

So one, that is never born never dies also, of course this we understand.

But then again this one is not you and me and we are worried only about ourselves.

So death is true for us.

So what is spirituality? What OSHO is saying? In what way we are connected with it?

The Root cause of all human suffering is this death fear.

So OSHO asks you to see the nature of life. Life is a continuum. It is a flow with many shapes and many forms. You are one such form. You will die completely but life continues. So don’t feel yourself as your body and its faculties but feel the life in you. The energy flow, the qualities of it. Not only that, to feel the life, die before the death comes, this is what they suggest. Any how you are going to die completely, and you are in fear of that death, so instead of living with this fear, die now itself. Die what you are and see if there is any resurrection in eternity.

Otherwise what is your life? Fear and fear and fear, some moments of forgetfulness of this fear, and for that you use all kinds of drugs from good effect to bad effect. Your whole society is formed in this way. Death is a taboo in the society. You cremate the person you loved in a remote corner of your town.

So first understand clearly that you die completely. You have no rebirth, no continuity, and for that matter nobody has rebirth or continuity. Some BODY, not somebody, may pick up some thoughts in the air, some feelings in the air but this is not rebirth.

Second amazing thing, which is the base of spirituality, is that that you have the potential to cross over the feelings of the bodily existence and you can touch or taste the life itself now and here. It can happen to you. But you cannot have it, because only on your death, this possibility arises. But again you have the potential to die before the death of the body. This process or teaching method or creating an inner and outer climate for you to die, is called meditation technique by OSHO.

Thirdly, after this death experience, your existence transcends the body. Your existence becomes of a different quality. This is more like a jump from animal to human, from limited body feelings to unlimited cosmic feelings. Though your body still exists, you are not. Body is a mechanism and it will run until it gets breakdown but you are awakened from the illusion of the body.

So spirituality is an adventure, a challenge, a quantum jump into the unknown. For that you have to understand first that you are like a bubble in existence and you die completely in your death. Moreover death comes for sure and that is the only certainty in the future of you. This makes you frustrated with this life, fed up with this life and you are ready to take any risk. Because what is the risk, you have nothing to lose, anyhow you die completely today or tomorrow. Instead of cheating yourself that you are a winner in this life and to appear so doing all kinds of dramas, you get bored. The intelligent always ends up here.

So you try to open up your potentiality. This is the real spirituality. Here you put yourself for experimentation. That is why very few people really interested in spirituality.

People love lies, people love dreams, people love hypocrisy, people love society approved drugs like god, power, prestige, fame, medals, honours etc., people who don’t get these drugs love the other drugs supplied by society like TV, Drama, Chatting, Gossip  etc., and some people love drugs like gambling, drinks, smoking & other chemical drugs,  people love sleep, people love to forget the fact of death somehow in short.

But if you die and resurrect, then the living in the body itself will become a creation of great art without any effort. Great artist is one, who is separate from his art, who never bothering about his art, the art becomes a child’s play for him. It is not his real life. He transcends it. But still he creates the art just as a play, just for the sake of sharing him. This kind of playful life is possible for humans. This is the vision of OSHO.

So, friends, realize the death. Suddenly you become courageous, you become adventurous, you become energetic to live this moment.

Not much time left. You die completely. So before that transcend you.

Love,

Sidd.

EMPTY HEART – COURAGE TO STAND ALONE WITHOUT EMOTIONAL SUPPORT

Dear friends,

Modern man is controlled and conditioned by thoughts, ideas, ambitions, goals, opinions, aims, beliefs, logical thinking, rational thinking, complexes of ego or inferior, stand points of mind, comparison, social values, etc., and all these are called by a single name “MIND” or more correctly can be called as “MINDING” because it is not a separate thing, but instead it is a continuous action taking place in the Brain.

There are activities in Brain which are not of Mind but only of knowledge. Like you know driving and you drive and this action of brain is not mind. Then what activity of brain is mind?

What is connected with emotions or for the purpose to fulfil your emotions OR the knowledge based activities connected with emotions or for the purpose to fulfil your emotions become your mind or minding. Then emotions......... emotions are body based, body centered, body protective, body needs and bodily unconscious information storage based. You can call them simply animalistic. This is not a condemnation, please remember. Moreover the humans’ emotion become more violent, more cunning, more political, more exploiting and more developed. Humans become hypocrites with their language, culture and diplomacy.

Humans born with a certain consciousness, that is, he is conscious of his consciousness. Animals are only conscious, only have feelings, no consciousness about its consciousness. But man has a feeling about his feelings. This is a must because he is born as a premature baby and so to protect him, this conscious of him is needed. So human baby is born with this tool, but utterly dependent and looks up for help. Now the society around him utilise this opportunity and cultivate him according to their custom. He is given a SELF, a false SELF and he becomes self conscious. His consciousness is utilised to conscious of his false self. This is not conscious of his real self. This is self-conscious or conscience, you may call.

The working or the continuous thinking process in the brain based on the false self and connected with emotions are the Mind or Minding.

Ok. Now we have emotions and we call the place of emotions as Heart.

Like thinking process is in brain, emotion process is in the heart.

Like knowledge is stored in brain, emotional experiences stored in heart.

So in the process of meditation or in the process of finding the real SELF, the first step is to see your thought process separately from you or Having a certain gap between you and your thinking process. To taste this, we have many meditation techniques.

After attaining this, after you learn to keep a gap of yourself from the process of minding, this is not that you are free from minding; just you have a gap or little loose grip of minding on you. Really without cutting the heart and making the heart empty, you cannot stop minding or the minding will not stop or drop.

The real test comes after this. Now you should become like this in your heart. You should create a gap or become loosely griped by heart. Then you cut the heart and break away from the past, from the body, from the emotional supports. You drop the old conditioned way of functioning of the heart that it always looking or taking the support of emotions. That may be from your own past or from the other. But you should become an EMPTY HEART, a free heart, an empty path way for energy flow.

When you become the empty heart, existence starts revealing to you the mysteries of life. You become the TAO that means “simply the way”. This is LET GO, this is SURRENDER. And this is the last step which happens on its own, but only when you are courageous to empty your heart and stand alone. This courage is not against something you feel power, but on the contrary, you are ready to die, you are able to accept and enjoy your helplessness. This aloneness is not that you are lonely, but you allow your loneliness to melt and merge with existence.

love,

sidd.

What is CENTERING OR GROUNDING?

What is this Grounding? Or Centering?
 

Always have a sense of body and you are grounded,

Always feel the Hara centre and you are grounded,

Always have the sense of where and what and you are grounded,

Always have the feel of your situation and you are grounded,

Always accept the reality and you are grounded,

Always act with awareness and you are grounded,

Always accept the death and you are grounded,

Always act in the present and you are grounded,

Never lose conscious and you are grounded,

Never fall into hallucination, imagination and you are grounded,

Never taken over by mind, by desires, by motivations and you are grounded,

Never pushed by others and you are grounded,

Never get into worry and you are grounded,

Never lose self-confidence and you are grounded,

There is so much and there is so many methods to teach them, train them.

But even after the training, when they go into life and try to practice, people are in a mess and they don’t feel centered. They don’t feel they find the ground. It is ok for managing day to day life but when they look inside, they get confused.

Where is my ground? Where is my centre? If i reached or touched the ground, then it must be there always and i should feel joy and i should be able to enjoy myself. Instead only it is like a tool i use to manage myself and this itself creates tension.

 

Even meditators, when trying to feel the Hara centre continuously are in a mess. They have to follow a certain discipline, adopt a certain way of life and then only they are able to feel the centre always. Otherwise they miss it or they struggle with themselves to be in the centre or in the grounding. This is strange because if it is grounding, then one must feel at ease and effortless and joy.

That is why we seek grounding or centering.  So what is the problem? 

Many meditators asked me about this. What is the real centre? Where is the real centre? What is our grounding? We feel grounded during the meditation but it never stays and if it is not staying, then how can it be grounding? So whatever we are taught in meditation workshops are something else, which gives us good feeling or they are not real grounding or centering.

That is true. During meditations you get the taste of some grounding or centering and that is not false also, but they are temporary grounds and you rest there. After sometime when you have taken enough rest there or when your mind is active again, you move away from the grounding. YOU HAVE STILL NOT REACHED THE REAL GROUNDING ON WHICH YOUR LIFE MOVES OR DANCES. If you touch that, then whatever the state of you, whatever the act of you, whatever the feeling of you , whatever the situation of you, you won’t lose the grounding.

So what is that? I don’t know how to explain it or to communicate it. But i can give you some examples. For a bird, for example, the sky is the grounding or centering.  for the fish, of course, the ocean is the grounding. It look strange, yap? Of course, because your idea of grounding or centering is something fixed, tiny. But that is the hindrance, the wrong idea.

So what is for humans?

For humans the grounding is consciousness or awareness or witnessing or nirvana or energy flow or let-go or whatsoever you want to call this. All other grounding or centering that we feel other than this are all relative to some partial state of you and not for your whole life. That is why you miss it when you change to another state.

So don’t stop anywhere and move to your real centre. That will give you bliss, you will be in utter relaxation and awareness. OSHO!

 

love,
sidd.

Disciple hood – the intelligent way to Enlightenment

Dear friends,

Whatever is the growth of mankind, some things you cannot change?

For example, science can be taught, whatever is the creation of mind, created on the ground of logic can be taught. Language can be taught. Maths has to be taught only. Engineering, medical can be taught. Even in these, the subjects are taught but the application of the subject cannot be taught, but it has to be learned by the interested person.

In case of ART, only techniques can be given. Tips can be given. Basic approach can be given, but not the art itself.

 In case of science, 75 percent can be taught and only 25 percent, the person has to learn. How to apply the science to a person or circumstance or work is a learning and it needs intelligence. If a person is completely lost the touch of himself, he cannot be intelligent, that’s why most of the first rank academics fail in life. In case of ART 25 percent only can be taught and the remaining 75 percent has to be learned by the person interested. The interested person has to come close to himself, explore his inner territory, his feelings, his body and for that he has to watch the ARTIST again and again, live with the ARTIST, feel the ARTIST and see how the ARTIST fall in tune with himself and so he gets dissolved and the ART is emerging.

This way of learning is a great opportunity and nowadays only few are blessed with this. That’s why the arts are becoming rare. Particularly it becomes a rarity in poor countries like India, because the whole society is behind money, forgetting the real values of life. Of course when you are hungry, you cannot offer to learn ART. Because learning itself is possible only when you are relaxed, full of energy like a child. When you are struggling and fighting and in tension, you can only pickup the minimum requirements to win, you won’t look for beautifying things, enhancing things, enchanting things. ART is 75 percent to be learned, so naturally you go for something which can be taught mostly and you can use it for your immediate requirement of survival and reaching social values.

Now, the spirituality or the INNER SCIENCE and OSHO wants to use this word. In learning the Inner science or in that process comes a capacity of everlasting ability of not losing the self nature or self realisation, which is called enlightenment. So everybody have the potential for it and they don’t recognise it or they forget it or don’t realise it because they don’t enjoy in it. It is more like, you have a swimming pool in your home, but you never use it, you don’t realise it, you have no time to enjoy it and so you don’t have the real taste of enjoying the pool and so you go to the bar for relaxation. Meditation is your INNER POOL and you are alone there. Nobody else can enter there. All your relationships, friendships, work, business, family, society and all its values are outside the body, based on the body’s projecting sensual experiences but the INNER is independent, alone and you are and only YOU is there.

This is mystery of existence. You have an outer and an inner and you can enjoy both. Moreover the outer and inner are looking two but they are like two sides of the coin or two edges of the stick or the centre and circumference of a circle. They are not opposites but complementary. But only the way of outer struggle and finding comfort in outer can be taught. Bringing the inner being into the outer is ART. Absorbing the outer to the INNER BEING is spirituality, inner science.

This is more like you live as a tree. Rooted in your inner being and extending the outer branches. The whole life is absorbed in the roots and its dance is the outer tree. This cannot be taught. This is 100 percent learning only. In art at least 25 percent can be taught. Here anything taught will have only negative effect. It’s totally learning. No rules here, no steps here, no syllabus here, no certificates, no grades, no training, no time limit, nothing can be fixed here. It can be immediate, it can never be, nothing is certain from the point of mind ways.

But still in existence, there is one gift for us. That is the living of a Master. A Spiritual Master means a person, who becomes a Master to himself, self realised, found the roots, remembered his self nature. He lives it, he is it, he has it, and he is a live wire of life current. So he can be a catalytic agent, he can trigger your inner being. Any natural tuning is triggering the INNER BEING of any sensitive human, like the ocean, mountains, falls, river, forest etc., Even a wild flower or a stray dog can trigger. So is the Master.

So living near the Master, seeing Him, watching Him, drinking Him, getting tuned slowly, you fall in your self-nature which is, at the deepest point, is the same source for all. Without a Master, it is almost impossible, it is very arduous, tiresome, mostly you won’t complete, there are pitfalls like imagination, hallucination, ego comes through the back door etc.,

So for me, we should be very intelligent and understand that LEARNING is the only way for self nature and the best way to learn is from another human being that is the Master. The quality of readiness to learn, to be vulnerable, to be open is the quality called DISCIPLEHOOD. It has nothing to do with the Master. It is everything to do with an individual.

Master is same with a disciple or without a disciple. He is not dependent on the disciple. No disciple can dictate the Master. A master who is changing to attract more disciples is a fake and this is an easy way to identify the fake master.

So be a disciple, even without a master. Then nature becomes your master. Nature will bring the suitable master to you. Once the disciple is ready, the master appears, in any form, in any way, by any touch. The fake masters exist because of fake disciples. So don’t get disrupted by them. Be a real disciple, ready to live a life of disciple hood.

love, sidd.

WE ARE OSHO+ AND NOT OSHO WIDOWS

Dear friends,

Something i want to say about our connection with OSHO always and today this happened like this, while i am talking with a friend. I summarise the talk.

When i met UG in 2006 or 2007, i don’t remember exactly, i spent a whole day in his presence.

At that time, on my arrival with other friends, he welcomed us and asks who are we? and i introduced ourselves as OSHO sannyasins. Immediately he said, “Oh! OSHO widows! Come, come.” I enjoyed it but i know it is not true and also i didn’t find words immediately to express my feelings. So later on, i told that we are not ‘OSHO widows’ but we are “OSHO+’ if you want to connect us with OSHO. I enjoyed what UG said because except OSHO for all other spiritual teachers, even for UG’s intellectual crap whom molested him all his life, this statement exactly fits.

This is one of the great and unique things that OSHO did. He never enslaved, even with his radical insights or with his new meditation techniques or with his abundance presence or even with his unlimited compassion. He worked to bring out the authentic living from every individual, and very carefully contradicts himself, so that nobody can live in his shadow. He maintains a flow, a inconsistency and a non capturable aliveness.

But at the same time he triggered a process in us, he worked as a catalyst, he served as a window to the real existence, a live wire of life, giving shock on touch in any way.

And by that we have grown, even we have out grown HIM and that is all he wanted.

He has time only to throw seeds and we have time to nourish the seed and enjoy the fruits.

In HIS time, nobody convinced that the seeds are not weeds, but now we have shown and proved how good the seeds are.

The way of beyond enlightenment and living as a rebel, dying to the past every moment and expressing in creativity, opens many new doors of life and we get many new revelations from existence, which enriches life.

OSHO is a beginning of a New-human, a new era and brings the possibility of paradise in earth.

Nobody can stamp him, nobody can make a philosophy on his teaching to learn as an academic subject, nobody can make him anything dead. It is impossible. He is a continuum, that also not by organization, not by any circle but by his direct thread of love, the connection he established with his sannyasins.

Now, we in turn connect with people and pass on the taste of love, trust, joy, laughter and meditation, which he shared with us. We find more ways to share, more colours to paint, more secrets to sing, which is growing moment to moment and unfolding according to the situation and climate.   

We trust existence, and that’s what we learned from him, we live in creativity with imperfection and always leaving growth possibilities. We don’t fall into the madness of creating a great institution or organization and instead share to bring out simple, sincere & factual human beings through our joy and celebration with awareness.

So we are really a OSHO+ and nothing to hide in it but all to be joyful and grateful.

Love, A OSHO+,

Sidd.

WHAT IS ENLIGHTMENT and BEYOND ENLIGHTENMENT?

Life means feelings. The difference between dead and alive is his feelings. Action can be induced by machines. Social responses can also be induced in a machine because it all comes from the storage of memory of the brain.

But feeling of “I AM” or the feeling of “AMNESS” is the real life. The “I” may be one of the stand points chosen by the brain from the opinions of others to polarise the memories. But the feeling of “AMNESS” is always there, that is consciousness.

Ok. Now what is meant by the word “Enlightenment”. Normally it is said that there is some unknown experience without the experiencer and that one is called by many names like God, Meditation, Vipasana, Mukthi, Moksha, Nirvana, Awareness, Consciousness, Witnessing etc., and because in this there is no experiencer, you cannot verbalise it.

But there are lot of momentary experiences without the “I”. Like accidents, falling in love, wonder, stunning beauty, unfolding creativity etc. These moments are leaving a deep experience in you, though you forget yourselves in those moments. It is more like that you say, “ i had a sound sleep” but you were not conscious in that sleeping moment.

Not only that the moments of “without i” leaves a deep imprint in you but also they change your way of living and seeing the life. So for sure “Enlightenment” is also an experience of you without the “I” but without losing the state of consciousness, instead in the peak state of consciousness.

Your body is relaxed so that the whole energy is in a peak state of consciousness, because in the tense state of the body, the energy moves in the body to make it more powerful. Also the mind is not focused because a focused mind forgets the source and the whole energy moves towards the object to achieve. But normally, relaxation is associated with sleep and energy is associated with activity either in body or mind. 

Anyhow in the above, we approach “Enlightenment” from the point of, how the body and mind will be. But what i want to share is not that.

For me Enlightenment is that, you feel the present moment completely. Your feeling is rooted very deeply in the moment. All your energy is available and flowing in this moment of life, for this moment of life. You feel the present-moment’s top and bottom together; you feel the centre and circumstance of the present-feeling’s together. You feel the fullness and emptiness together, you see the connection and cut together. You are so balanced that you see the whole of your-presence in this moment, the tangible and intangible. Your view becomes complete, you see the birth and death both. You feel the flow and you feel the unchanging part underneath.

Once you get this full view, that is it. It changes your way of living and seeing the life. It is like a pleasant smell added in your environment, nothing changes but the whole atmosphere has changed. You see silence and on which music hits, but the silence is so vast and deep and strong, the music does not make any mark on it, the music of life is a dance of the escaped particles of silence.

Enlightenment experience depends on the background of the mind and body you carry before it. Because the energy or consciousness locked in the body and mind in its patterns, memories, experiences etc., is jumping into a new realm by suddenly getting the full view. It also suddenly tasting the untasted reality. When you touch this after so much of life long effort, naturally a good laugh will born out of you.

This state of being is best worded by OSHO as “witnessing”. This is the same reason that OSHO says that the future religion is ZEN, and only ZEN. Because only in ZEN everything except “witnessing” is removed. No path, no scripture, no teaching, no discipline. Just you sit in ZAZEN, that means just sit unmoving, doing nothing, simply sitting, the spring comes and the gross grows by itself. You enter into the full view.

By this the false boundaries, the false limitations of body and mind were also lost and this also leads to a new experience.

Actually, after “Enlightenment” you become simply an experiencing body. It starts a new life with a new vision. Without the anxiety of “I”, you move towards the existence or the existence moves through your body. Both are right. You are one end of existence’s innumerable ends which grow or expand. You live you feelings and they take you to more deeper realms. Because now, you are always fresh, without any pattern, without any focus, and only the present-moment manifests in you according to the need of the moment. This is the life “Beyond Enlightenment”. Because of this, the people of enlightenment move to solitariness to move into deeper realms and the society bondage is a hindrance to this.

So as OSHO says in one place, upto Enlightenment you move towards enlightenment, and after that you move towards existence.

sky view,
sidd.

WHAT IS LOVE ?

I think the most talked, preached subject to humanity up to now is love.

OSHO used to say that because of this so much teaching, it was killed, poisoned and a total hypocrisy, complete mask has been developed in its place.

I know this, because when i turn back to my childhood, i can see clearly that i was completely empty of it and i only wear a mask of it. As a child i have needs and fears and i was always filled with one of emotions based on these two. Those are difficult times and i was craving to escape from this slavery of fears and needs. But when i grow my needs and fears were also grown up and my struggle became more intense. Sex need also added further complication.

But, my goodness! I tasted love at lost after so much of this and that, and after so many years. In my experiences of falling in love, i tasted the energy of the opposite sex and the energy uprising in me, without the physical contact. This is Biological upsurge and receptivity only, but still i felt first time that i am expanded, i am more than what i think, my limits are more than what i felt up to now. So from then on i love all lovable girls and always feel the flow of energy in me. In this flow of energy moments, i was out the fears and needs which torture me and also this gave the of experience of freedom, freedom from struggle and fear and thousand and one things and also a sense of expansion.

But still it is not love. It(the love) happened in one moment, when i was utterly contend, relaxed and free from needs and fears. Suddenly from the my state of contendness, energy started overflowing and filled my empty heart, moreover it started overflowing from the heart and started filling the whole place outside me also. O! This is love! I tasted. But the moment has gone.

I tried to get it again. But the journey continues with all ups and downs. In some moments i touched it while i am in meditation, while in sharing OSHO with somebody, feeling J.K., Ramana, i can say. But the important thing is i felt great agony within me in all other moments, as if i am in a prison locked up inside my mind.

This keep my search going on and i end up with letgo of everything in me. And i found that i am in peace, contend and the love started following. It opens door to feel more expansion and when we were expanding  beyond the limits, only the witnessing remains with us. So it is complete.

The journey from i to witnessing is possible only with the experience of expansion, and that is love arising from the empty and contended heart. A child is contend in the womb,  it is enjoying love, it is in the expansion of the mother, it is in the love of the mother. So everybody tastes love energy with the mother and it becomes the basic need of life, basic search of life.

The mother has a privilege of experiencing the love by her biological expansion into the child. That is the natural peak experience of love, but it is not conscious. The next one is sex, in which biologically you connect with the other and bio energies melt into each other and you feel the expansion, but again it is not fully conscious. But the friendliness can give a small conscious taste.

So love, love, and expand, become the expansion and when you lost completely in it, you are witnessing also.

Empty hearted,

sidd.