Friday, April 11, 2014


Life means feelings. The difference between dead and alive is his feelings. Action can be induced by machines. Social responses can also be induced in a machine because it all comes from the storage of memory of the brain.

But feeling of “I AM” or the feeling of “AMNESS” is the real life. The “I” may be one of the stand points chosen by the brain from the opinions of others to polarise the memories. But the feeling of “AMNESS” is always there, that is consciousness.

Ok. Now what is meant by the word “Enlightenment”. Normally it is said that there is some unknown experience without the experiencer and that one is called by many names like God, Meditation, Vipasana, Mukthi, Moksha, Nirvana, Awareness, Consciousness, Witnessing etc., and because in this there is no experiencer, you cannot verbalise it.

But there are lot of momentary experiences without the “I”. Like accidents, falling in love, wonder, stunning beauty, unfolding creativity etc. These moments are leaving a deep experience in you, though you forget yourselves in those moments. It is more like that you say, “ i had a sound sleep” but you were not conscious in that sleeping moment.

Not only that the moments of “without i” leaves a deep imprint in you but also they change your way of living and seeing the life. So for sure “Enlightenment” is also an experience of you without the “I” but without losing the state of consciousness, instead in the peak state of consciousness.

Your body is relaxed so that the whole energy is in a peak state of consciousness, because in the tense state of the body, the energy moves in the body to make it more powerful. Also the mind is not focused because a focused mind forgets the source and the whole energy moves towards the object to achieve. But normally, relaxation is associated with sleep and energy is associated with activity either in body or mind. 

Anyhow in the above, we approach “Enlightenment” from the point of, how the body and mind will be. But what i want to share is not that.

For me Enlightenment is that, you feel the present moment completely. Your feeling is rooted very deeply in the moment. All your energy is available and flowing in this moment of life, for this moment of life. You feel the present-moment’s top and bottom together; you feel the centre and circumstance of the present-feeling’s together. You feel the fullness and emptiness together, you see the connection and cut together. You are so balanced that you see the whole of your-presence in this moment, the tangible and intangible. Your view becomes complete, you see the birth and death both. You feel the flow and you feel the unchanging part underneath.

Once you get this full view, that is it. It changes your way of living and seeing the life. It is like a pleasant smell added in your environment, nothing changes but the whole atmosphere has changed. You see silence and on which music hits, but the silence is so vast and deep and strong, the music does not make any mark on it, the music of life is a dance of the escaped particles of silence.

Enlightenment experience depends on the background of the mind and body you carry before it. Because the energy or consciousness locked in the body and mind in its patterns, memories, experiences etc., is jumping into a new realm by suddenly getting the full view. It also suddenly tasting the untasted reality. When you touch this after so much of life long effort, naturally a good laugh will born out of you.

This state of being is best worded by OSHO as “witnessing”. This is the same reason that OSHO says that the future religion is ZEN, and only ZEN. Because only in ZEN everything except “witnessing” is removed. No path, no scripture, no teaching, no discipline. Just you sit in ZAZEN, that means just sit unmoving, doing nothing, simply sitting, the spring comes and the gross grows by itself. You enter into the full view.

By this the false boundaries, the false limitations of body and mind were also lost and this also leads to a new experience.

Actually, after “Enlightenment” you become simply an experiencing body. It starts a new life with a new vision. Without the anxiety of “I”, you move towards the existence or the existence moves through your body. Both are right. You are one end of existence’s innumerable ends which grow or expand. You live you feelings and they take you to more deeper realms. Because now, you are always fresh, without any pattern, without any focus, and only the present-moment manifests in you according to the need of the moment. This is the life “Beyond Enlightenment”. Because of this, the people of enlightenment move to solitariness to move into deeper realms and the society bondage is a hindrance to this.

So as OSHO says in one place, upto Enlightenment you move towards enlightenment, and after that you move towards existence.
sky view,

Tuesday, April 8, 2014


I think the most talked, preached subject to humanity up to now is love.

OSHO used to say that because of this so much teaching, it was killed, poisoned and a total hypocrisy, complete mask has been developed in its place.

I know this, because when i turn back to my childhood, i can see clearly that i was completely empty of it and i only wear a mask of it. As a child i have needs and fears and i was always filled with one of emotions based on these two. Those are difficult times and i was craving to escape from this slavery of fears and needs. But when i grow my needs and fears were also grown up and my struggle became more intense. Sex need also added further complication.

But, my goodness! I tasted love at lost after so much of this and that, and after so many years. In my experiences of falling in love, i tasted the energy of the opposite sex and the energy uprising in me, without the physical contact. This is Biological upsurge and receptivity only, but still i felt first time that i am expanded, i am more than what i think, my limits are more than what i felt up to now. So from then on i love all lovable girls and always feel the flow of energy in me. In this flow of energy moments, i was out the fears and needs which torture me and also this gave the of experience of freedom, freedom from struggle and fear and thousand and one things and also a sense of expansion.

But still it is not love. It(the love) happened in one moment, when i was utterly contend, relaxed and free from needs and fears. Suddenly from the my state of contendness, energy started overflowing and filled my empty heart, moreover it started overflowing from the heart and started filling the whole place outside me also. O! This is love! I tasted. But the moment has gone.

I tried to get it again. But the journey continues with all ups and downs. In some moments i touched it while i am in meditation, while in sharing OSHO with somebody, feeling J.K., Ramana, i can say. But the important thing is i felt great agony within me in all other moments, as if i am in a prison locked up inside my mind.

This keep my search going on and i end up with letgo of everything in me. And i found that i am in peace, contend and the love started following. It opens door to feel more expansion and when we were expanding  beyond the limits, only the witnessing remains with us. So it is complete.

The journey from i to witnessing is possible only with the experience of expansion, and that is love arising from the empty and contended heart. A child is contend in the womb,  it is enjoying love, it is in the expansion of the mother, it is in the love of the mother. So everybody tastes love energy with the mother and it becomes the basic need of life, basic search of life.

The mother has a privilege of experiencing the love by her biological expansion into the child. That is the natural peak experience of love, but it is not conscious. The next one is sex, in which biologically you connect with the other and bio energies melt into each other and you feel the expansion, but again it is not fully conscious. But the friendliness can give a small conscious taste.

So love, love, and expand, become the expansion and when you lost completely in it, you are witnessing also.

Empty hearted,