Friday, December 6, 2013


Is it looking strange?

First time i heard only from OSHO that everybody is unique. Before that i don’t know. But now grown under his energy-field, i come across 2 uniquenesses in me and then i found that it is true to everybody.

One is the uniqueness of the body. Each body & brain is unique in humanity. This is already a proven fact. By this everybody has a unique quality. Everybody has unique quality of feeling the outer world and having own body-mind. It flowers in their day to day life and once you know it you have no need to struggle in the society and in the outer world. You know what you can do and what you cannot do creatively. You can live your uniqueness and that is the only peaceful way of existence in the world.

I came to know mine and i started living through this in the outer world. After finding this, there is no temptation or distraction in the outer world. I am peaceful. If i can do something, yes i do. If i cannot, yes i can’t. The outer search is over with this. I rejoice my body-mind with all its limitation and uniqueness.

The second one i want to share with you is, the uniqueness of inner being, which everybody carries. Everybody is a miniature of existence and everybody carries a certain unique quality of existence itself in their being. Finding this is an inner exploration, and once you find it, your inner turmoil will be over. Now this unique quality of existence which you carry in your inner being becomes your path, your way, and your connection with the centre of existence itself. You can easily taste, easily fall, easily merge with the existence in this way. This is your nature and no struggle is involved in it.  

When you touch this, whether it is by accident, or by action or by a presence or by a conscious effort of meditation, it will give you contentment; bliss, a silence and a feeling of reached the home back.

This i found out, when the meditation happens to me naturally in my total openness. When i don’t carry anything inside, even a mood, i always feel contentment, silence, joy, smile etc. Or in one word feel good.  

I wonder in my early years, what is this? When you are nothing, not proving anything, no success, no effort, you feel good. This is something wrong. So i move away from this and try to do many many foolish things. But i always touched great relaxation, whenever i fall into this space in me, i become an openness or i become an emptiness.

Then after a long journey of spiritual search or spiritual ego trip, may be you can call this ego as ‘self ego’ because this ego didn’t hurt anybody except you, but in this trip i again and again thrown back to my vast openness or emptiness, by Masters and by outside life.

It is miraculous. This openness of me, not carrying anything of this world, throwing out all traces of this world, restores my peace always. I become cool, airy, and comfortable.

So, this way of entering into the centre of existence is with me from my very birth at least. So this i call the 2nd uniqueness i carry with me. This is my way towards the centre. This is the inner quality of me, which is not belonged to body-mind  but belongs to the very being itself. It is one of the dimensions of existence, which exists in me as OPENNESS or EMPTINESS.

In other words, through this openness or emptiness, i touch the deepest core of existence. Or you can say that i am connected with the centre of existence through this quality of openness or emptiness.

This is the natural way to me to be in awareness, to be in consciousness, to be in silence, to be in contentment, to be in love, to be in meditation.

And moreover i am able to see this 2nd uniqueness in everybody. My beloved has this – ever changing, changing completely, not carrying any trace of the previous moment - quality. This is, of course, one of the deepest quality of existence. Existing like this is the celebration and meditation for her.

My son has this – the trust, an unquestionable trust, even where his mind sees fraud, he trusts, his trust is unshaken, it is not dependent on the outside. He rejoice his trust and completely happy and contend and joyful in his existence as trust.

So in these two persons, who are close to me, i am able to find it out and when i say they immediately fell into meditation or silence or inner smile.

It helped them to relax and not to struggle unnecessarily. Not getting confused and driving nuts in search of meaningful life. So this understanding of 2nd uniqueness, which everybody carries with them, is very important for the spiritual realization.

Monday, December 2, 2013

The mystery & magic of Awareness

Humans’ whole, almost whole, energy is in his animalistic emotions.

Anger, Jealousy, violence, possessiveness, sex, hunger, greediness, fear, protection, competition, comparison, relationship, power, war, motherliness, rest, addiction, habit, curiosity, cunningness ... like these animal emotions, hold 90 percent of energy of a human child. The remaining 10 percent is a pure awareness; a child inherits this in his birth itself.

This human awareness will also can be lost if a child is in the middle of animals only. Because, this awareness gets completely affiliated with animal emotions and so the child also becomes an animal.

In normal circumstance, a child is growing among the humans. So his awareness is not lost completely but it gets affiliated with the standpoint of an “I” like other humans around. This stand point of “I” is supplied by the society around with a purpose of accumulating knowledge and using it for self protection. This “I” accumulates ideas from others and outer sources and also it converts its own experiences according to its stand point of “I” and store it. This human accumulation has grown very fast because of the discovery of language and time by the humans. Nowadays the knowledge multiplied with technology and science.

The little awareness affiliated with the “I” now has a big storage and this runs very fast and this continuous running is the mind. It continuously accumulates and so grows and also runs faster to read all. So this sucks all awareness as well as body energy.

With the awareness affiliated “I” the storage becomes mind. This is how the little awareness of humans becomes identified as “aware-mind”.

Without “I”, the storage of knowledge becomes science and reasoning and logic. Just as a computer usable by awareness.

Now, a human child is born with and lives through animalistic emotions, and this is life. Aware-mind is used to fulfil the animalistic emotions. A child grows like this.

This aware-mind, to live the animalistic emotions without hindering the social setup, creates moral, ethics, culture, civilisation etc., on one hand and on the other hand developed new mind strategies like politics, trade, guiltiness, miserliness, insult, prestige, duty, adoration, tension, seriousness, betrayal, ego, exploitation, lie, rumour, drunkenness, depression, slavery, hesitation, madness, going astray, laziness, obsession, hypocrisy etc., to fulfil the animalistic emotions.

Small stream of humans, by chance or by accident or by coincidence or by whatever reason, whose awareness were not get affiliated fully with the storage collected by the stand point of “I”, discovered, contributed immensely to the humanity by way of dance, paintings, music, sculpture, drama, poetry, stories, science, logic, language, medicine, reasoning, maths, time, etc., etc., which are all born out of increase in awareness. They have also grown to human feelings like love, friendship, humour, celebration, adventure, wonder, beauty, sharing, understanding, creativity, responsibility, relaxation, maturity, silence, discipline, cleanliness, religiousness, gratitude, romance, etc.,

OK. Now, the magic of awareness or mystery of awareness.

When a child gets an animalistic emotion and the society around is not allow it to live, then 2 possibilities are before the child.

First, through the mind, the animalistic emotion takes shape of another animalistic emotion which may be accepted in the society. For example if anger is not allowed, the child started crying.

Or take the shape of the worst new strategies discovered by human mind like politics, betrayal, depression etc., which are workable in the society. For example anger becomes self pity and depression. Then the child expresses this emotion to somebody or to the society. If expression is not possible in any case or big danger is involved in the expression, the child suppresses the emotion and learn hypocrisy.

In this case, it goes deep inside and become a volcano, which is waiting to erupt. In case of throwing to somebody, it gets the retaliation immediately or the other become an enemy either openly or secretly according to his personality, the social face, the ”I”.

The 2nd possibility is, when a child gets an animalistic emotion and the society around is not conducive to live it, the child is not converting that into another animalistic emotion or to a worse trick developed by mind, but instead become simply aware of the animalistic emotion and bear it in its awareness. This can happen if the child is not developed a ‘running mind’ or a strong “I”. In this state the magic or mystery happens. The whole energy in the animalistic emotion is slowly transferred to awareness and awareness gets increased. On the other hand the animalistic emotion gets reduced and at one stage disappears completely.

You can do catharsis of OSHO, which is a process of throwing out the suppressed emotions with awareness and without the standpoint of “I”. This also increases your awareness instantly.

Also with the growth in awareness, the animalistic emotions can also be used as a tool to live securely in the society. Awareness becomes your being. ‘Running mind’, stand point of “I”. both become tools. Also with the increase in awareness, many human qualities start appearing.

The human qualities have a quality that they connect with you to the existence around and so you never lose energy in expression, instead from existence you get back more energy and this increases your awareness more. But you should be careful of animalistic human society, because in this society the individuals live and react according to their personality or the “I” image given by the society.

From human qualities, your awareness grows further and your “I” becomes less, because the need to use “I” becomes less in a real human society, in a real state of happiness and humour.

With your increase in awareness, you expand more, connected with existence more, and at one point your awareness explodes beyond the boundary of the body-mind conditioning and your awareness merges with the universal awareness.

You can say that the domination of the brain over the body collapses at one point and your body becomes free from the “I” of aware-mind as well as the unconscious-mind. Your body starts functioning completely from its own unconscious-mind it has. There is an unchanging, unaffected, awareness in and around. Your brain also functions but not running non-stop, unstoppably. It won’t develop identifications, attachments and “I” and won’t run behind them madly and for that won’t try to change the body, won’t tries to change the others around and won’t tries to change everything around. The Brain and Body both work under awareness, the cosmic awareness.

Thursday, November 7, 2013


Osho is an intellectual giant, great orator, ferocious reader, cute businessman, lover of luxury and comfort, very mischievous, very individualistic, a spiritual researcher, inventor of new meditation techniques, very strong atheist, strong naturalist and many more may be. What are all I remember this moment I have mentioned?

But what is his biggest contribution to humanity. There is something like that is there for sure. Because he is the only person who is impressing the humanity
continuously for the last 5 decades and more miraculously without any big organizational setup like religion or cult or lot of branches with centralised head office. Moreover, the people particularly the youth are behaving his way or turning his way, even without consciously knowing it. The youths are more enjoying, less serious, more scientific, less believing, more free, more adventurous, less bonded, less committed to family organization, more moving, less bothered about the past, and more may be.

My understanding is that OSHO is not creating a way or creating the path. Instead he lived as the first new man and lived as a forerunner of the coming world of new humanity. He never claims a new path but he claims a new way or new approach towards the life available.

He never interested to change anything outside. This very Body is the Buddha and This very Earth is the Heaven – is his approach.

So what is so special about him and his contribution?

That is, he proclaims and lived a life, which has a profound new approach, unknown to humanity up to now, and up to now no avatar, no prophet, no philosopher, no thinker, no religion, no school of thought, no master of enlightenment, nobody had ever even imagined.

That is, Humans can live the life from birth to death, all climates of life, whether it is sorrow, pain, death, disease, accident, loss, failure, insult, hurt, humiliation or it is joy, success, victory, benefit, wealth, comfort or anything coming in life or happening in life, with a mood of rejoicing, yes, anything in life, but there is no reason why you are not rejoicing, this is his greatest contribution. What is wrong in death or suffering? They are the salt of life, the opposites are not opposites but complementaries in life. Without night what is day and without hot what is coolness. Without anger how you enjoy love? Without insult how you see your ego? So everything is helpful and so everything should be rejoiced, should be celebrated. Life has to be approached with a sense of humour.

Rejoicing the whole life, celebrating everything, every moment, every happening is possible for the human. Only the wrong psychology is the hindrance. The psychology of the past is based on fear and greed for exploitation and without scientific knowledge. A new psychology is possible. A rejoicing, a celebrating, a humorous psychology is the healthy psychology.

With this HE lived and with HIM a new man with a new psychology starts. A lot has to be done in every level of society, in every level of growth from the day of birth of a child, but still it is coming and OSHO is the proof. Humans can live the whole life with a sense of Humour and celebration.

What is point of guilt or complex or sad or angry or afraid.

It is foolish. It is all rubbish. It is all garbage of the past. Throw out all.
Rejoice the life. Rejoice means enjoy with deep rootedness in existence.
Or enjoy without mind and with awareness of you. Celebrate your existence with the existence.

For nothing you have to worry. What is the point? You are not the controller of existence, so what can you do except worrying. Stop this stupidity. And also you don’t know who controls the existence, so what can you do. Simply rejoice the opportunity. If you are limited you are limited, that’s all. Live your body, mind, heart and spirit. That’s all you can do. Living completely, totally, living your senses, your intelligence, your feelings and your spirit is rejoicing.

Then, with this way of life, with this approach of life, a great creativity will born out of you, a great adventure will born out of you, a beauty, a grace, an ecstasy, a deep silence, a rootedness in witnessing will flow out of you.

You naturally want to go more deep into existence, want to participate more with nature and for that you will search ways and means. And you will move naturally towards meditation, silence and compassion.

The world and humanity should live with great rejoice, with great sense of humour, hand in hand.

Throw all old and burn it. Forget the past. Be clean and live with clarity of this moment. Rejoice you and the existence around you. You and existence are not two. You are small existence, a cut vegetable piece but having the same taste. That is the mother and you are a child. So living with mother, what is there to worry? Whatever it brings or gives is good for you. So rejoice the life. Let go and celebrate let go. Accept and rejoice the acceptance. Be choice less and enjoy that open sky. Leave the stand point of ‘I’ and enjoy that freedom. Look at you and around, enjoy the life with a sense of Humour.

This is completely wild and new and fresh approach to the whole of humanity.

This is the psychology of OSHO, the new man, the new man he named ZORBA THE BUDDHA, I call ZORBUDDHA, the upcoming youth.

This newly defined psychology, defined by his very living that way, is the biggest contribution of OSHO to the Humanity.

All of you i welcome to join to live this way. This needs guts, great cleansing, throwing all past rubbish, sharp intelligence, creativity and living every moment. This is not impossible but very much possible.

Conscious Love,

Friday, October 25, 2013



Beware of Mind.

It is a good protector as a dog preventing others trespasses into your space.
It is social tool.

But you should be very careful, that you should not allow the dog to become your master.
The dog should not decide what is good and bad for you.
Because it knows only the bad, its work is to bark on anything new, anybody new. It is trained for that purpose only.
It is only to be used against a thief.

But the problem of modern man is that he is completely dominated by the dog in all 24 hours.

He becomes so afraid.

He lost the capacity to allow the natural intelligence of his brain to see the things and respond.

He lost the capacity to live in heart, heart is the chariot on which you have to travel through life, but your chariot is going the way the dogs guide it.

The power of feelings, the horses of the chariot, becomes covered and running behind the dogs.

The dog is imitative, repetitive, slave; afraid and always worried about the thief, suspecting everything, never want to adventure, for the security and safety ready to lose freedom and spirit.

So beware of mind. It is developed as tool to protect by the brain. It is not you and don’t get attached with that, identified with that.

Brain is totally different. It is scientific, it is inventive, it is intelligent, it is always ready to grow, and full of adventure and thirst for truth.

Heart is feelings. It is always in the present, fresh, energy bubbling with curiosity and playfulness.
Heart is for friendship and sharing. It is exploding in the present always.

But mind, all opposite, always planning, preparing for the mishap, always remembering the bad things happened, always bringing the negative side of every experience, because its work is a watchman, protector.

So don’t take the advice of the watchman to live your life. Use him but beware of the friendship with him.

For a joyful life, celebrating life, watchman is a bad company.

Truly, when you taste the life, when you become grownup and mature, you will feel that now you don’t need the watchman. A point will come that you merge with existence and ecstasy, that now you want to live even the bad things because now you understand that the bad things are not that bad, instead they are part of life, complementarities of good, not opposites. Like dark is not against light, it is the resting side and light is the active side and both are needed in life. Really life happens only between the polarities. So they are not opposites.

But we become identified with watchman, always asking his advice and guidance, and we forget our original self, our potential and become a slave to watchman. He commands now on everything and he knows nothing.

He know only who attacks, his experience is always based on suspicion, fear and protective.
He functions only on comparison and past experiences.

So friends,
BE free from watchdog, that is the real freedom.

Conscious Love,

Wednesday, March 20, 2013


Dear friends,

OSHO'S CATHARSIS you may be knowing. OSHO is the first mystic who emphasis catharsis as a pre-requisite for Meditation. HE explains it in great and minute details.

THE REASON of HIS insistence is that the modern human is the most suppressed, repressed human in the whole history of the mankind. This is proved more and more by the doctors and psychologists by their findings that the root cause of all present human diseases and disorders are nothing but stress and tension. Because of the stress and tension modern humans are not able to relax into the body, relax into the nature and so the accumulations are never treated and that is the cause of all troubles.

MODERN HUMAN holds, suppress, repress and accumulate and he has no time and space in his stressed schedules. And the body and brain, at one point has to clean itself to keep up the survival and this pushes into many bodily and mental illnesses.

MOREOVER, MEDIATION is an experience of overflowing energy from higher transformed planes, it is an experience of expansion from the constrains of body and 'i'. So for this, the basic requirement is the overflowing energy in your system. For this you need a knotless, obstacle less body and brain. And all your emotional, sentimental storage inside, whether it is out of animal instinct or out of social feelings, they are obstacles, hindrances, knots in the flow of energy.Though, pure non-emotional information or learning are helpful for your comfort ability, they too are not helpful for transformation, please remember. It is like driving you learned and it is certainly increases comfort in life. Think your brain is a computer. Then, in computer, the datas will never create problem, only the softwares installed create problems. They are installed at a particular point for some specific work but they run continuously and eat up the energy of the computer.

SO TO CLEAN your suppressions, repressions catharsis is a must as a preparation for Meditation for the modern human.

THE SOCIETY doesn't allow your animal instincts to live. To hold power over you, to enslave you, the powerful people always bring rules and regulations by way of religious preaching, by way of duty, obedience, conscience, respect, morality, by way of creating many belief systems and with them they repress your natural instincts from the very beginning, from your childhood, because it is possible only then.

THIS DOESN'T NOT mean that humans to be freely allowed to harm others . A responsible society should help every child to express the animal instincts which are very natural and help to live them and understand them fully, so that it transforms or evolves automatically into human feelings. This should be the primary education. This needs understanding and loving atmosphere for the child. When a child lives wildly and taught to be aware of himself without any judgments of right or wrong, the child flowers into the human qualities like love, creativity, music, art, science, friendship, sharing etc.,

BUT ON THE contrary the child is suppressed, repressed, burdened with expectations of so called caring parents etc., and out of this - sadness, guilt, depression, escapism etc., are all born. And this non-stop working negative emotional knots eat up lot of energy always and so humans turn towards mind or stored knowledge ability to live and this way mind is given master post to command body and brain. Once you caught in the grip of mind it becomes very difficult to come out, because it has many faculties like language, logic, imagination etc., and it takes you round in its own knitted world, the MAYA and it is always round and round. With the more knowledge, more experience the round may become bigger or smaller but it is always round and round. That is the way of functioning of mind, it never touches the reality really. Only see through its ideas and explains.

TO MEDITATE, to jump out of mind, you need overflowing energy, which a suppression person will never have. So is the insistence and importance for catharsis.

OSHO CREATED many techniques like Gibberish, No mind, Reliving, Child again to do the catharsis and all are very useful to bring the freshness back to you.

THERE is another type of cleaning, which is also needed and we see that now.

NOT ONLY a child gets suppressed by others and by that get accumulated negative knots, thoughts, ideas but also A Child is also fed with so called positive knots like superiority, winner, successor, high, first, virtuous, good, great, noble and also a lot of ideas like dutiful, obedient, sacrifice, god fearing, motherland, mother tongue, cast, heritage superiority fanatic ideas, ego boosting social values, and your mind takes all this as positive and try to live up to that. Fighting to make yourself fit into the life of ideas. This softwares you willingly run in the brain computer, you willingly allow them to control the brain function.

WITH SUPPRESSIONS, repressions, you suffer unknowingly and you are consciously not allowing them to take over the brain but it is conrolling. But with positive knots you consciously give the remaining energy to mind and hope you are travelling in the right direction. This is the major portion of humanity and because of this attitude of non-awareness, majority is not seeking and searching in life, exploring in life. Instead trying to move fast in the dotted lines drawn in their mind.

ATLEAST THE so called negative people, who caught up totally by the animal instinct have the awareness that they have to grow from this, and what they do is animalistic. The so called positive people are totally doped by the society. You are enslaved by the vested interest of the powerful people, you become a hypocrite, you become mechanical, totally conditioned and the biggest unfortunate thing is that you don't even know that you are manipulated like this. This is the ignorance. Your wild child is still waiting inside deep down to live and explore the life and always it waits for the opportunity and this way you are divided, torn apart and this makes you energy less and miserable and as a result mind becomes your master.

SO THIS POSITIVE knots, ideas, thoughts are also to be cleaned. For this catharsis methods don't help. Instead you have use a different method. And this is "LIVING WITH AWARENESS' and "UNDERSTANDING YOUR MIND PATTERN".

BECAUSE THIS positives are also knots only. They are not out of your growth or understanding or transformation into human qualities. These also were knowledge fed by somebody, of course by the trusted people, blind beliefs accepted by you without questioning, only logical conclusions without living, dogmas & ideas of others. They were fed when you are vulnerable, weak, dependent, sick and fragile. This formed your mind and this dominates you. That is why there are many kinds of mind in the world.

You are trying to live up to the goals setup in your mind. And whenever you fulfill you are supplied with social drugs like attention, prestige, appreciation, honors, etc., You are allowed to use bodily drugs like alchol, tobacco etc., in controlled quantities. You are also allowed to enter into the fantasy of joy to a certain extent by entertainment. This is how you are managed.

TO COME OUT of this sleepiness, this ignorance, this false, mechanical, hypocrite world of mind, it is a must to taste meditativeness. Overflowing energy rises to higher realms and you expand beyond bodymind.

ON ONE HAND clean yourselves and on the other hand live intensely, dangerously, lovingly, patiently with awareness, and let the mind cry from a corner against you. In the process of cleaning or may be in the wild ways of living, you may touch the life. And once you touch you are taken over and only nature exists. Exists through your body & brain.


Sunday, March 17, 2013


Dear friends,

THE WHOLE spirituality surrounds the so called 'i'. All spiritual teaching and paths agree on one point that the 'i' has to be dropped. This 'i' is the center of mind, minding and mind world. This 'i' is the central root on which the whole my, mine, myself, all the possessiveness, protection, fear, greed etc., are all grow. This 'i' has grown to the modern man more and so his cunningness, politics, ego, etc., are all grown much. His tension and stress get multiplied.

EVEN THOUGH this 'i' is there on one side, driving you crazy on continuous minding, there is always a inner subtle feelings on the other side which goes on surfacing in every being. Out of this, love, creativity, friendship, silence, laughter, wonder, adventure like qualities are also born for humans.

WHATEVER THE basic nature of action, whether it is inner quality based or social conditioning based or your animal instinct based, , when you involve in action you need an 'i'. Without 'i' you cannot organize the work. This 'i' is like the "operation system" installed in a computer, like windows 8. Only with this you add all other software and organize the entire working process. In addition you store, analyze, create using your software. But a 'os' is a must for working of computer or a brain. Without this, a computer becomes simply a calculator or brain like an animal brain, can do only simple things, few things, not many, not complex things, not creative.

SO WHAT is this 'i' in human. It is a STAND POINT. The stand point given to a child by the parents, teachers, education and all in the society. A child first is given a name. say 'maaka'. First when you say 'maaka is walking' when the child walks, child didn't get it. The next time the child walks it will say 'maaka is walking'. You correct it immediately saying that, don't say 'maaka walking', say 'i am walking'. 'maaka' is you, your 'i'. Then child with this stand point try to gather things or store things and it helps tremendously. Whenever the child wants to remember it is very easy to fetch. Otherwise there are thousands and thousands of things around and the senses pickup all. So this 'i' filter the needy and filter what to store and what to throw in recycle bin.

THEN THE child uses the same method of installing many small 'i's within this 'i' as useful software, like i belong to this family, this country, this street, this caste, i am a student, i am a doctor, i am an engineer and also like i am intelligent, i am a fool etc ., and all these software were take hold of the child soon. FIRST YOU add software of 'i's to add efficiency but soon it takes over and there is no moment in your life, without some 'i' is functioning. This is exactly the problem of human.

THE BRAIN with all this 'i' software within the basic 'i' OS, continuously under pressure to sort out and decide what is to do and what is not. How to function, what orders to give to the body, which 'i' to give preference and this is creates confusion and great chaos. Furthermore, more compulsive orders come from animal instinct and sensitivity of senses, like in the computer the more basic operations goes on in from registry, boot files and for hardware check. To exist beyond the 'i' standpoint is the existence beyond mind. In the evolution process, mind or the 'i' standpoint in the brain takes a jump and leads human to a more comfortable living. The science, logic, mathematics, language, teaching are all becomes possible by the great accumulation and concentration ability of human, and that comes out of the 'i' jump and great usage of the 'i' standpoint.

I AM A DOC, you think and remember and store and create the doc 'i' standpoint software. This is very helpful when you work in the hospital, visit hospitals, lab, patients, because this standpoint filters out all the unnecessary things other than the standpoint of doctor, and picks up the minute details helpful for the doctor. For example a doc and eng enter into a new hospital building and after rounding came out, both picked up things according to their standpoint and they didn't notice the other noticed things. The doc will say many things about how clean, how great the operation theatre, etc., the eng will say the building structure is unique, plumping and electrical works are not up to the mark etc.,

SO 'I' IS MERELY a standpoint, a useful stand point, but still this not all of you. If you are able to see this point and understand and able to apply in life, the matter is finished. The whole jargon of spirituality ends.

ALL YOUR WORRIES over. You become something more than this 'i', a being, a tiny universal existence, but still a miniature universe. Simply you rejoice, though you use the 'i' on need like you use your hand or leg but you are free from the monologue instructions of some 'i' inside.


Friday, March 15, 2013


Dear friends,

MEDITATION TECHNIQUES are very helpful. There are many developed by mystics to help the people around them. Heart oriented, Hara oriented, Groundedness or Centeredness techniques, Active and Passive, Tantra, Yoga, Witnessing directly, Let go or Surrender and they are all helpful tremendously.

I PERSONALLY been helped immensely by OSHO Dynamic, Zazen, Relaxation into Hara meditation techniques. But i want to say beware of meditation techniques.

FIRST WHAT is a meditation technique? It is something you start doing from your mind. Secondly it is not meditation itself. It is an effort to create an inner climate in which meditation may blossom. OSHO explained everything very beautifully. It is to be playful, happy, without loosing witnessing, not to be goal oriented or ego centered, put the mind on music etc., so that somehow to make the mind's involvement very less from the beginning.

BUT STILL it is a mind's effort. The purpose of the devise is to take you to the beyond mind space. To give a new expansion of your feeling. And that new space is beyond mind, beyond body experiences, knowledge, reasoning, logic, social values, social relationships, social feelings. In one say it is not the world you know already. So basically techniques are not connected in any way with the Meditative state. That is why OSHO insists that, you decide meditation and everything in life, everything you come across, 24 hours are all devices and nothing else. This whole world is not a real world but a devise to move to the real world. This stand point is absolutely needed for a meditator to move on.

AND CERTAINLY, ABSOLUTELY there is no connection between body's world and this new expansion. IT IS LIKE one side is deep water and the other side is forest divided by a high wall. You are on the forest side and you take a tree post and use it to high jump the wall to fell on the other side. It is a good and intelligent effort, there is no doubt in it. But there comes a moment in your high jump, that you have to leave the post and let go you to fall on the other side. IF YOU hold the post or if you miss the timing, though you jump and the jump is enough, you fall back on the same side. It is possible also that someone just get struck by jumping with the post practice, without going near the wall also . This gives experiences, of course of the jumping, then ego comes in. It start imagining what you want, its start explaining, fixing and the most dangerous is get struck, get addicted, get associated and that is the trouble. I have seen in many people that it follows life after life.

THAT IS WHY i want to say beware of techniques, devises. Don't get struck, don't allow the mind to judge the happenings. Absolutely you should be playful in using the techniques. Particularly in Tantric Techniques. In OSHO active techniques also people fall into a kind of mechanical doing but still it is not so harmful. It can break at some point or become only a body exercise or a ego fulfilling act or an addiction but not harmful deeply. But in Tantric Techniques, you become feeling full and in that keeping the awareness is very difficult and you may miss it and fall into identification or indulgence. Not only that you miss but you enjoy so much that it becomes an addiction, it gives you a certain joy like in taking drugs, temporarily out of worries and you will struck with that and it will continue for lifes. This particularly i want to insist.

ALSO THE love, the surrender, the Master disciple relationship , all that is in the spiritual path are all devises only. Never get struck anywhere. In Tantric techniques the advantage is that you experience, you feel and it is more real and not thinking, but you may get hooked with indulgence. That is why OSHO says that a master and a specific environment is a must for Tantric practice. For active meditations, the problem is mind starts thinking and manipulating, making you mechanical, and so the real intensity never happens. So in that remember to relax from mind, let go, playful, total and intense in body, otherwise you get struck.

ALSO IT IS good to approach the day to day life with the not technical but qualitative way. Be feelingful, be a witness, act totally, jump into intensity, increase sensitivity, feel life & death, feel nature, enjoy the gifts of laughter, wonder, creativity, beauty etc.,

KEEP DOING the meditation techniques also. Otherwise slowly, unknowingly, the unconscious will change the priority from meditation to trivia. Doing techniques will be a self reminder to keep the priority. But i suggest you to do them every day as the day one, new, without any trace of practice.

THESE THINGS keep your way more beautiful, more balanced, and slowly in this rejoicing, doings go, happenings come, you merge with life, a great trust arise, gratitude fills you, all techniques fall back, suddenly you are living there already.



Dear friends,

WHEN YOU are learning 'car driving' you keep that as priority, whole day you wait for that, your body, mind and emotions turned towards it. And at the time of learning nothing else is important only this. This is how you learn it.

BUT ONCE you have learned, your body reflexes learned the car driving, you can change the priority to something else. Even while you are driving, you have no need to keep it as a priority.

THIS IS applicable to all outside doings. Actually once the thing is learned and understood by the brain, next time it is done without your conscious effort. Brain throws this to its unconscious working knowledge or mechanical responses recorded storage.

BUT THIS is not the case with Meditation. That's why when a person stops doing meditation, his conscious growth stopped, not only slips down but also he falls back into the unconscious.

BUT USUALLY because of the practical experience we have with outside things, we treat meditation also in the same way. We do it for few days and then feel now you know it, understand it, got it. But it is not so. Why? BECAUSE AS for as the outside things learning, it is within the reach of the body's capacity and so once it is learned, it can be stored and reproduced without your consciousness.

BUT MEDITATION is outside the boundary of past experiences of body & brain. Moreover even when you entered into the new space or new experience beyond the past, you cannot store it because it is happening beyond the normal body system. You become more like fragrance than like tree. Tree cannot store the fragrance, though from it, it is produced. Even the flowers are part of it but not the fragrance. Meditation is more like fragrance. The qualities love, beauty, rejoicing, silence and many like this, are all fragrances possible for humans. Tree can rejoice the releasing of fragrance through it but it cannot hold it.

SO EVERY time you have to start from body and after entering into the new experience or new realm or new space, you have to remain there and live there. You cannot bring anything from there to the body understanding, because it happens totally beyond the body in another plane of existence.

SO ALWAYS you have to keep Meditation in the top priority, if you want to live it. It is not practice-able. It is only livable, always new, fresh, deeper.

YOU MAY have known the artists, how so ever great, long time, but continuously every day they play music, sing songs, dance, poets rejoice in aloneness, because otherwise they fall back into normal body. You have to live it every day and that is the only way to remain as an artist.

MEDITATION IS deeper than artistry. So what to say. THIS IS one of the important weakness, i come across from the seekers. The people once get power, money, prestige, fame, wealth even in the so called seeker's society, they stop meditating or they give the top priority to something else, like important works, helping others, running meditation corporate, etc.,

I ALWAYS insist people who visit me, that if they want to talk, discuss, share or enquire with me, there is one simple criteria, that is they should be meditating at least one hour totally and so i know that at least at sometime in a day meditation becomes their top priority.

IF A SEEKER slips from this, alas, whatever his past credentials, he or she will be taken over by the unconscious mind. All their talent, knowledge, experiences will be manipulated by the unconscious mind. This is how all the do-gooders always do harm to everybody, in the name of love, understanding, sincerity, protection etc.,

IF A SEEKER wants to reach the living of an evolved natural state, that is enlightenment state, then he or she must keep in top priority always meditation. Then the whole life becomes a devise for meditation and nothing else. Then you move fast, deep, total and intense towards the next natural state.


Tuesday, March 12, 2013


Dear friends,

THIS is my first post, the day, today, i am starting this blog.

ONE DAY, after finishing the dynamic meditation technique, walking in the garden slowly i see the deepest connection between love and meditation.

IN MY long journey as a seeker, always a question or a separation is standing there intellectually in my mind, though in life who bothers about the intellectual standing, thank you for the integrity exists in us rooted in feelings and not in intellectual ideas one is holding.

SO WHENEVER some discussion happens, when we are not alone, we are social, this separation of love and meditation crops up.

AND MOSTLY it is concluded with an answer that both are separate paths, separate approaches, separate techniques, at least in the beginning of the inner journey and according to the individuals. both merge in the end or when you have merged enough in one, the other also shows up.

BUT OSHO again and again insists that love & meditation are like 2 wings of the bird. but then how can you start the journey with one wing.

IN PUNE resort they insist 'meditation is the only way'. they seems to think that love is a private affair.

INDIANS in the name of love jump into each other and hide their beings inside. don't want to struggle with meditation techniques. for them love is to show and meditation is a private affair.

STRANGE approaches. but for all in common love and meditation remains separate or atleast in starting point it is separate.

BECAUSE of this conditioned idea of separation, and so the logic and language stems out of this idea, though in life there is no separation, i was not able to explain the connection in words.

I ALWAYS feel myself with both and wonder what i am doing. not following totally the love and not following totally the meditation techniques.

MY LOVE feeling always come with awareness and it is strange that i never fall in love, though i loved lot of women and men. love changed me a lot but never it has given me suffering.

MEDITATION always make me soft and vulnerable and loving and is it meditation really i wonder many times.

BUT I can tell you now in words also how love and meditation is one and inseparable.

MY MEDITATION nature i found out of my immense self love. and loving oneself is just a natural quality. love and meditation for me is like roots and branches. meditation is the root and loving is the stem, branches, flowers, fragrance and fruits.

ONLY THING i can say is that when am freed from conditioning or social mind or the society inside, that very moment i start moving or walking towards love and meditation. only the social mind - which contains lot of feelings created by the society, ideas, dogmas, beliefs, philosophies - is the barrier.

WHEN THAT social structure fell out of my brain, suddenly i stand before the nature naked, open, risky, without protection. but it is beautiful. because from there my trust born and grown. my love & meditation starts naturally. life becomes a expression of existence. very weightless, light, without any individual principle, without any separate aims, no separate life, but still very much alive.

ONLY WHEN YOU EXPRESS, because of the limits of expression, you may talk about love and you see love that time and you may talk about meditation and you see meditation that time. but how deep you feel the love or trust that much you feel the meditative nature also. this is inseparable. that is why loving people, who may not heard of meditation but their nature is meditative.

ONE MORE emphasis i want to make is - this love we are talking about is more nearer to loving oneself than any other love. Also it is nearer to the trust, which for me is a better, unpolluted replacement of the word loving.

IN THIS PLACE of love and meditation, there are other qualities like silence, bliss, ecstasy, laughter, witnessing, beauty, timelessness, intelligence, creativity are all there naturally.

HERE EVEN THE ego is not an interference, but a tool, a usable standpoint, serving its purpose.

NOTHING CHANGES. the outside includes the body, mind, society, circumstance and the whole universe. inside witnessing is not separate from outside and so there is no outside and inside. only a center with changing or dancing or evolving circumference.

SO LOVE and meditation is not separate. loving oneself deeply, you enter into the meditation space also. when you enter into the meditation you become the overflowing love also.

THIS IS not a concept or philosophy, take this only an expression. it may change if you ask me again, but only the expression changes. and it will go on change because of the dialectic nature of our language.


conscious love,