Friday, December 6, 2013


Is it looking strange?

First time i heard only from OSHO that everybody is unique. Before that i don’t know. But now grown under his energy-field, i come across 2 uniquenesses in me and then i found that it is true to everybody.

One is the uniqueness of the body. Each body & brain is unique in humanity. This is already a proven fact. By this everybody has a unique quality. Everybody has unique quality of feeling the outer world and having own body-mind. It flowers in their day to day life and once you know it you have no need to struggle in the society and in the outer world. You know what you can do and what you cannot do creatively. You can live your uniqueness and that is the only peaceful way of existence in the world.

I came to know mine and i started living through this in the outer world. After finding this, there is no temptation or distraction in the outer world. I am peaceful. If i can do something, yes i do. If i cannot, yes i can’t. The outer search is over with this. I rejoice my body-mind with all its limitation and uniqueness.

The second one i want to share with you is, the uniqueness of inner being, which everybody carries. Everybody is a miniature of existence and everybody carries a certain unique quality of existence itself in their being. Finding this is an inner exploration, and once you find it, your inner turmoil will be over. Now this unique quality of existence which you carry in your inner being becomes your path, your way, and your connection with the centre of existence itself. You can easily taste, easily fall, easily merge with the existence in this way. This is your nature and no struggle is involved in it.  

When you touch this, whether it is by accident, or by action or by a presence or by a conscious effort of meditation, it will give you contentment; bliss, a silence and a feeling of reached the home back.

This i found out, when the meditation happens to me naturally in my total openness. When i don’t carry anything inside, even a mood, i always feel contentment, silence, joy, smile etc. Or in one word feel good.  

I wonder in my early years, what is this? When you are nothing, not proving anything, no success, no effort, you feel good. This is something wrong. So i move away from this and try to do many many foolish things. But i always touched great relaxation, whenever i fall into this space in me, i become an openness or i become an emptiness.

Then after a long journey of spiritual search or spiritual ego trip, may be you can call this ego as ‘self ego’ because this ego didn’t hurt anybody except you, but in this trip i again and again thrown back to my vast openness or emptiness, by Masters and by outside life.

It is miraculous. This openness of me, not carrying anything of this world, throwing out all traces of this world, restores my peace always. I become cool, airy, and comfortable.

So, this way of entering into the centre of existence is with me from my very birth at least. So this i call the 2nd uniqueness i carry with me. This is my way towards the centre. This is the inner quality of me, which is not belonged to body-mind  but belongs to the very being itself. It is one of the dimensions of existence, which exists in me as OPENNESS or EMPTINESS.

In other words, through this openness or emptiness, i touch the deepest core of existence. Or you can say that i am connected with the centre of existence through this quality of openness or emptiness.

This is the natural way to me to be in awareness, to be in consciousness, to be in silence, to be in contentment, to be in love, to be in meditation.

And moreover i am able to see this 2nd uniqueness in everybody. My beloved has this – ever changing, changing completely, not carrying any trace of the previous moment - quality. This is, of course, one of the deepest quality of existence. Existing like this is the celebration and meditation for her.

My son has this – the trust, an unquestionable trust, even where his mind sees fraud, he trusts, his trust is unshaken, it is not dependent on the outside. He rejoice his trust and completely happy and contend and joyful in his existence as trust.

So in these two persons, who are close to me, i am able to find it out and when i say they immediately fell into meditation or silence or inner smile.

It helped them to relax and not to struggle unnecessarily. Not getting confused and driving nuts in search of meaningful life. So this understanding of 2nd uniqueness, which everybody carries with them, is very important for the spiritual realization.

Monday, December 2, 2013

The mystery & magic of Awareness

Humans’ whole, almost whole, energy is in his animalistic emotions.

Anger, Jealousy, violence, possessiveness, sex, hunger, greediness, fear, protection, competition, comparison, relationship, power, war, motherliness, rest, addiction, habit, curiosity, cunningness ... like these animal emotions, hold 90 percent of energy of a human child. The remaining 10 percent is a pure awareness; a child inherits this in his birth itself.

This human awareness will also can be lost if a child is in the middle of animals only. Because, this awareness gets completely affiliated with animal emotions and so the child also becomes an animal.

In normal circumstance, a child is growing among the humans. So his awareness is not lost completely but it gets affiliated with the standpoint of an “I” like other humans around. This stand point of “I” is supplied by the society around with a purpose of accumulating knowledge and using it for self protection. This “I” accumulates ideas from others and outer sources and also it converts its own experiences according to its stand point of “I” and store it. This human accumulation has grown very fast because of the discovery of language and time by the humans. Nowadays the knowledge multiplied with technology and science.

The little awareness affiliated with the “I” now has a big storage and this runs very fast and this continuous running is the mind. It continuously accumulates and so grows and also runs faster to read all. So this sucks all awareness as well as body energy.

With the awareness affiliated “I” the storage becomes mind. This is how the little awareness of humans becomes identified as “aware-mind”.

Without “I”, the storage of knowledge becomes science and reasoning and logic. Just as a computer usable by awareness.

Now, a human child is born with and lives through animalistic emotions, and this is life. Aware-mind is used to fulfil the animalistic emotions. A child grows like this.

This aware-mind, to live the animalistic emotions without hindering the social setup, creates moral, ethics, culture, civilisation etc., on one hand and on the other hand developed new mind strategies like politics, trade, guiltiness, miserliness, insult, prestige, duty, adoration, tension, seriousness, betrayal, ego, exploitation, lie, rumour, drunkenness, depression, slavery, hesitation, madness, going astray, laziness, obsession, hypocrisy etc., to fulfil the animalistic emotions.

Small stream of humans, by chance or by accident or by coincidence or by whatever reason, whose awareness were not get affiliated fully with the storage collected by the stand point of “I”, discovered, contributed immensely to the humanity by way of dance, paintings, music, sculpture, drama, poetry, stories, science, logic, language, medicine, reasoning, maths, time, etc., etc., which are all born out of increase in awareness. They have also grown to human feelings like love, friendship, humour, celebration, adventure, wonder, beauty, sharing, understanding, creativity, responsibility, relaxation, maturity, silence, discipline, cleanliness, religiousness, gratitude, romance, etc.,

OK. Now, the magic of awareness or mystery of awareness.

When a child gets an animalistic emotion and the society around is not allow it to live, then 2 possibilities are before the child.

First, through the mind, the animalistic emotion takes shape of another animalistic emotion which may be accepted in the society. For example if anger is not allowed, the child started crying.

Or take the shape of the worst new strategies discovered by human mind like politics, betrayal, depression etc., which are workable in the society. For example anger becomes self pity and depression. Then the child expresses this emotion to somebody or to the society. If expression is not possible in any case or big danger is involved in the expression, the child suppresses the emotion and learn hypocrisy.

In this case, it goes deep inside and become a volcano, which is waiting to erupt. In case of throwing to somebody, it gets the retaliation immediately or the other become an enemy either openly or secretly according to his personality, the social face, the ”I”.

The 2nd possibility is, when a child gets an animalistic emotion and the society around is not conducive to live it, the child is not converting that into another animalistic emotion or to a worse trick developed by mind, but instead become simply aware of the animalistic emotion and bear it in its awareness. This can happen if the child is not developed a ‘running mind’ or a strong “I”. In this state the magic or mystery happens. The whole energy in the animalistic emotion is slowly transferred to awareness and awareness gets increased. On the other hand the animalistic emotion gets reduced and at one stage disappears completely.

You can do catharsis of OSHO, which is a process of throwing out the suppressed emotions with awareness and without the standpoint of “I”. This also increases your awareness instantly.

Also with the growth in awareness, the animalistic emotions can also be used as a tool to live securely in the society. Awareness becomes your being. ‘Running mind’, stand point of “I”. both become tools. Also with the increase in awareness, many human qualities start appearing.

The human qualities have a quality that they connect with you to the existence around and so you never lose energy in expression, instead from existence you get back more energy and this increases your awareness more. But you should be careful of animalistic human society, because in this society the individuals live and react according to their personality or the “I” image given by the society.

From human qualities, your awareness grows further and your “I” becomes less, because the need to use “I” becomes less in a real human society, in a real state of happiness and humour.

With your increase in awareness, you expand more, connected with existence more, and at one point your awareness explodes beyond the boundary of the body-mind conditioning and your awareness merges with the universal awareness.

You can say that the domination of the brain over the body collapses at one point and your body becomes free from the “I” of aware-mind as well as the unconscious-mind. Your body starts functioning completely from its own unconscious-mind it has. There is an unchanging, unaffected, awareness in and around. Your brain also functions but not running non-stop, unstoppably. It won’t develop identifications, attachments and “I” and won’t run behind them madly and for that won’t try to change the body, won’t tries to change the others around and won’t tries to change everything around. The Brain and Body both work under awareness, the cosmic awareness.