WE ARE OSHO+ AND NOT OSHO WIDOWS

Dear friends,

Something i want to say about our connection with OSHO always and today this happened like this, while i am talking with a friend. I summarise the talk.

When i met UG in 2006 or 2007, i don’t remember exactly, i spent a whole day in his presence.

At that time, on my arrival with other friends, he welcomed us and asks who are we? and i introduced ourselves as OSHO sannyasins. Immediately he said, “Oh! OSHO widows! Come, come.” I enjoyed it but i know it is not true and also i didn’t find words immediately to express my feelings. So later on, i told that we are not ‘OSHO widows’ but we are “OSHO+’ if you want to connect us with OSHO. I enjoyed what UG said because except OSHO for all other spiritual teachers, even for UG’s intellectual crap whom molested him all his life, this statement exactly fits.

This is one of the great and unique things that OSHO did. He never enslaved, even with his radical insights or with his new meditation techniques or with his abundance presence or even with his unlimited compassion. He worked to bring out the authentic living from every individual, and very carefully contradicts himself, so that nobody can live in his shadow. He maintains a flow, a inconsistency and a non capturable aliveness.

But at the same time he triggered a process in us, he worked as a catalyst, he served as a window to the real existence, a live wire of life, giving shock on touch in any way.

And by that we have grown, even we have out grown HIM and that is all he wanted.

He has time only to throw seeds and we have time to nourish the seed and enjoy the fruits.

In HIS time, nobody convinced that the seeds are not weeds, but now we have shown and proved how good the seeds are.

The way of beyond enlightenment and living as a rebel, dying to the past every moment and expressing in creativity, opens many new doors of life and we get many new revelations from existence, which enriches life.

OSHO is a beginning of a New-human, a new era and brings the possibility of paradise in earth.

Nobody can stamp him, nobody can make a philosophy on his teaching to learn as an academic subject, nobody can make him anything dead. It is impossible. He is a continuum, that also not by organization, not by any circle but by his direct thread of love, the connection he established with his sannyasins.

Now, we in turn connect with people and pass on the taste of love, trust, joy, laughter and meditation, which he shared with us. We find more ways to share, more colours to paint, more secrets to sing, which is growing moment to moment and unfolding according to the situation and climate.   

We trust existence, and that’s what we learned from him, we live in creativity with imperfection and always leaving growth possibilities. We don’t fall into the madness of creating a great institution or organization and instead share to bring out simple, sincere & factual human beings through our joy and celebration with awareness.

So we are really a OSHO+ and nothing to hide in it but all to be joyful and grateful.

Love, A OSHO+,

Sidd.

WHAT IS ENLIGHTMENT and BEYOND ENLIGHTENMENT?

Life means feelings. The difference between dead and alive is his feelings. Action can be induced by machines. Social responses can also be induced in a machine because it all comes from the storage of memory of the brain.

But feeling of “I AM” or the feeling of “AMNESS” is the real life. The “I” may be one of the stand points chosen by the brain from the opinions of others to polarise the memories. But the feeling of “AMNESS” is always there, that is consciousness.

Ok. Now what is meant by the word “Enlightenment”. Normally it is said that there is some unknown experience without the experiencer and that one is called by many names like God, Meditation, Vipasana, Mukthi, Moksha, Nirvana, Awareness, Consciousness, Witnessing etc., and because in this there is no experiencer, you cannot verbalise it.

But there are lot of momentary experiences without the “I”. Like accidents, falling in love, wonder, stunning beauty, unfolding creativity etc. These moments are leaving a deep experience in you, though you forget yourselves in those moments. It is more like that you say, “ i had a sound sleep” but you were not conscious in that sleeping moment.

Not only that the moments of “without i” leaves a deep imprint in you but also they change your way of living and seeing the life. So for sure “Enlightenment” is also an experience of you without the “I” but without losing the state of consciousness, instead in the peak state of consciousness.

Your body is relaxed so that the whole energy is in a peak state of consciousness, because in the tense state of the body, the energy moves in the body to make it more powerful. Also the mind is not focused because a focused mind forgets the source and the whole energy moves towards the object to achieve. But normally, relaxation is associated with sleep and energy is associated with activity either in body or mind. 

Anyhow in the above, we approach “Enlightenment” from the point of, how the body and mind will be. But what i want to share is not that.

For me Enlightenment is that, you feel the present moment completely. Your feeling is rooted very deeply in the moment. All your energy is available and flowing in this moment of life, for this moment of life. You feel the present-moment’s top and bottom together; you feel the centre and circumstance of the present-feeling’s together. You feel the fullness and emptiness together, you see the connection and cut together. You are so balanced that you see the whole of your-presence in this moment, the tangible and intangible. Your view becomes complete, you see the birth and death both. You feel the flow and you feel the unchanging part underneath.

Once you get this full view, that is it. It changes your way of living and seeing the life. It is like a pleasant smell added in your environment, nothing changes but the whole atmosphere has changed. You see silence and on which music hits, but the silence is so vast and deep and strong, the music does not make any mark on it, the music of life is a dance of the escaped particles of silence.

Enlightenment experience depends on the background of the mind and body you carry before it. Because the energy or consciousness locked in the body and mind in its patterns, memories, experiences etc., is jumping into a new realm by suddenly getting the full view. It also suddenly tasting the untasted reality. When you touch this after so much of life long effort, naturally a good laugh will born out of you.

This state of being is best worded by OSHO as “witnessing”. This is the same reason that OSHO says that the future religion is ZEN, and only ZEN. Because only in ZEN everything except “witnessing” is removed. No path, no scripture, no teaching, no discipline. Just you sit in ZAZEN, that means just sit unmoving, doing nothing, simply sitting, the spring comes and the gross grows by itself. You enter into the full view.

By this the false boundaries, the false limitations of body and mind were also lost and this also leads to a new experience.

Actually, after “Enlightenment” you become simply an experiencing body. It starts a new life with a new vision. Without the anxiety of “I”, you move towards the existence or the existence moves through your body. Both are right. You are one end of existence’s innumerable ends which grow or expand. You live you feelings and they take you to more deeper realms. Because now, you are always fresh, without any pattern, without any focus, and only the present-moment manifests in you according to the need of the moment. This is the life “Beyond Enlightenment”. Because of this, the people of enlightenment move to solitariness to move into deeper realms and the society bondage is a hindrance to this.

So as OSHO says in one place, upto Enlightenment you move towards enlightenment, and after that you move towards existence.

sky view,
sidd.

WHAT IS LOVE ?

I think the most talked, preached subject to humanity up to now is love.

OSHO used to say that because of this so much teaching, it was killed, poisoned and a total hypocrisy, complete mask has been developed in its place.

I know this, because when i turn back to my childhood, i can see clearly that i was completely empty of it and i only wear a mask of it. As a child i have needs and fears and i was always filled with one of emotions based on these two. Those are difficult times and i was craving to escape from this slavery of fears and needs. But when i grow my needs and fears were also grown up and my struggle became more intense. Sex need also added further complication.

But, my goodness! I tasted love at lost after so much of this and that, and after so many years. In my experiences of falling in love, i tasted the energy of the opposite sex and the energy uprising in me, without the physical contact. This is Biological upsurge and receptivity only, but still i felt first time that i am expanded, i am more than what i think, my limits are more than what i felt up to now. So from then on i love all lovable girls and always feel the flow of energy in me. In this flow of energy moments, i was out the fears and needs which torture me and also this gave the of experience of freedom, freedom from struggle and fear and thousand and one things and also a sense of expansion.

But still it is not love. It(the love) happened in one moment, when i was utterly contend, relaxed and free from needs and fears. Suddenly from the my state of contendness, energy started overflowing and filled my empty heart, moreover it started overflowing from the heart and started filling the whole place outside me also. O! This is love! I tasted. But the moment has gone.

I tried to get it again. But the journey continues with all ups and downs. In some moments i touched it while i am in meditation, while in sharing OSHO with somebody, feeling J.K., Ramana, i can say. But the important thing is i felt great agony within me in all other moments, as if i am in a prison locked up inside my mind.

This keep my search going on and i end up with letgo of everything in me. And i found that i am in peace, contend and the love started following. It opens door to feel more expansion and when we were expanding  beyond the limits, only the witnessing remains with us. So it is complete.

The journey from i to witnessing is possible only with the experience of expansion, and that is love arising from the empty and contended heart. A child is contend in the womb,  it is enjoying love, it is in the expansion of the mother, it is in the love of the mother. So everybody tastes love energy with the mother and it becomes the basic need of life, basic search of life.

The mother has a privilege of experiencing the love by her biological expansion into the child. That is the natural peak experience of love, but it is not conscious. The next one is sex, in which biologically you connect with the other and bio energies melt into each other and you feel the expansion, but again it is not fully conscious. But the friendliness can give a small conscious taste.

So love, love, and expand, become the expansion and when you lost completely in it, you are witnessing also.

Empty hearted,

sidd.

The Magic of Sensitivity

I want to share, how the transcendence of unconscious sensations (it does not mean, they are bad) happened to me. 

Naturally a child is very sensitive. But when it grows, when it gets entangled with the family and society and with its growing stand point of “I”, it loses its sensitivity. It becomes a personality, more a social face, more head oriented, more logical, more idea based, more thinking oriented and loses its sensitivity. It is using the thinking more and senses less. It is more thinking dependent than its sensitivity dependence. So for a grown up human, the sensitivity is very less and the thinking process is very fast and non-stop. His whole energy is first used by the mind and the rest is not even adequate for the basic functions to maintain the body. Now this has become the basis for modern diseases.

So in this state of less sensitivity, a human gets a sensation only out of natural need. These are like hunger, sex, fear, sadness or anger. These are also not allowed naturally when they surface in you. They are condemned, regulated and controlled by the society from the outside and by your own mind from inside. You are suppressing even the basic sensations. So when you get the chance for sensations, these are flooding and you become totally unconscious and you act unconsciously. After that, you become afraid of these sensations because your consciousness is lost on those moments. So people are always worried about their sex, fear and anger.

But if you are really sensitive, that means you enjoy sensations every moment. Coolness of the dawn, beauty of the sunset, calling of the birds, smell of flowers, wakeup state of trees, brightness of the sun, heat of the sun, the miracle of your body, your breathing cycle, your food processing system, your brain function, a smile of the child, the blossoming of the motherhood, a morning walk of touching the earth by your feet, there are unlimited wonders and mysteries around us in every moment.

When you are living in utmost sensitivity in every moment, no sensation will take over you and you never fall into the unconscious. Whatever the sensation, even hunger, even sex, even anger, even fears cannot flood but instead they also will come to you like a breeze and won’t pull you down from your state of consciousness. This is the miracle. This is how you transcend to higher consciousness or bigger consciousness and also become free from the grip of basic sensations like sex and anger.

So less sensitivity and suppression leads you into more unconsciousness and more into the grip of few basic sensations, which cannot be suppressed forever. Because of this state, you become afraid of yourself, you become afraid that at any moment your mask can fall down, your personality can get broken.

On the other hand, increase in sensitivity, living every moment with at most sensitivity, leads you to a very conscious life, makes you free from the grip of all sensations including animalistic, unconscious sensations and you blossom into the state of peace and silence.

EVERYBODY HAS 2 UNIQUENESSES

Is it looking strange?

First time i heard only from OSHO that everybody is unique. Before that i don’t know. But now grown under his energy-field, i come across 2 uniquenesses in me and then i found that it is true to everybody.

One is the uniqueness of the body. Each body & brain is unique in humanity. This is already a proven fact. By this everybody has a unique quality. Everybody has unique quality of feeling the outer world and having own body-mind. It flowers in their day to day life and once you know it you have no need to struggle in the society and in the outer world. You know what you can do and what you cannot do creatively. You can live your uniqueness and that is the only peaceful way of existence in the world.

I came to know mine and i started living through this in the outer world. After finding this, there is no temptation or distraction in the outer world. I am peaceful. If i can do something, yes i do. If i cannot, yes i can’t. The outer search is over with this. I rejoice my body-mind with all its limitation and uniqueness.

The second one i want to share with you is, the uniqueness of inner being, which everybody carries. Everybody is a miniature of existence and everybody carries a certain unique quality of existence itself in their being. Finding this is an inner exploration, and once you find it, your inner turmoil will be over. Now this unique quality of existence which you carry in your inner being becomes your path, your way, and your connection with the centre of existence itself. You can easily taste, easily fall, easily merge with the existence in this way. This is your nature and no struggle is involved in it.  

When you touch this, whether it is by accident, or by action or by a presence or by a conscious effort of meditation, it will give you contentment; bliss, a silence and a feeling of reached the home back.

This i found out, when the meditation happens to me naturally in my total openness. When i don’t carry anything inside, even a mood, i always feel contentment, silence, joy, smile etc. Or in one word feel good.  

I wonder in my early years, what is this? When you are nothing, not proving anything, no success, no effort, you feel good. This is something wrong. So i move away from this and try to do many many foolish things. But i always touched great relaxation, whenever i fall into this space in me, i become an openness or i become an emptiness.

Then after a long journey of spiritual search or spiritual ego trip, may be you can call this ego as ‘self ego’ because this ego didn’t hurt anybody except you, but in this trip i again and again thrown back to my vast openness or emptiness, by Masters and by outside life.

It is miraculous. This openness of me, not carrying anything of this world, throwing out all traces of this world, restores my peace always. I become cool, airy, and comfortable.

So, this way of entering into the centre of existence is with me from my very birth at least. So this i call the 2^nd uniqueness i carry with me. This is my way towards the centre. This is the inner quality of me, which is not belonged to body-mind  but belongs to the very being itself. It is one of the dimensions of existence, which exists in me as OPENNESS or EMPTINESS.

In other words, through this openness or emptiness, i touch the deepest core of existence. Or you can say that i am connected with the centre of existence through this quality of openness or emptiness.

This is the natural way to me to be in awareness, to be in consciousness, to be in silence, to be in contentment, to be in love, to be in meditation.

And moreover i am able to see this 2^nd uniqueness in everybody. My beloved has this – ever changing, changing completely, not carrying any trace of the previous moment - quality. This is, of course, one of the deepest quality of existence. Existing like this is the celebration and meditation for her.

My son has this – the trust, an unquestionable trust, even where his mind sees fraud, he trusts, his trust is unshaken, it is not dependent on the outside. He rejoice his trust and completely happy and contend and joyful in his existence as trust.

So in these two persons, who are close to me, i am able to find it out and when i say they immediately fell into meditation or silence or inner smile.

It helped them to relax and not to struggle unnecessarily. Not getting confused and driving nuts in search of meaningful life. So this understanding of 2^nd uniqueness, which everybody carries with them, is very important for the spiritual realization.

The mystery & magic of Awareness

Humans’ whole, almost whole, energy is in his animalistic emotions.

Anger, Jealousy, violence, possessiveness, sex, hunger, greediness, fear, protection, competition, comparison, relationship, power, war, motherliness, rest, addiction, habit, curiosity, cunningness ... like these animal emotions, hold 90 percent of energy of a human child. The remaining 10 percent is a pure awareness; a child inherits this in his birth itself.

This human awareness will also can be lost if a child is in the middle of animals only. Because, this awareness gets completely affiliated with animal emotions and so the child also becomes an animal.

In normal circumstance, a child is growing among the humans. So his awareness is not lost completely but it gets affiliated with the standpoint of an “I” like other humans around. This stand point of “I” is supplied by the society around with a purpose of accumulating knowledge and using it for self protection. This “I” accumulates ideas from others and outer sources and also it converts its own experiences according to its stand point of “I” and store it. This human accumulation has grown very fast because of the discovery of language and time by the humans. Nowadays the knowledge multiplied with technology and science.

The little awareness affiliated with the “I” now has a big storage and this runs very fast and this continuous running is the mind. It continuously accumulates and so grows and also runs faster to read all. So this sucks all awareness as well as body energy.

With the awareness affiliated “I” the storage becomes mind. This is how the little awareness of humans becomes identified as “aware-mind”.

Without “I”, the storage of knowledge becomes science and reasoning and logic. Just as a computer usable by awareness.

Now, a human child is born with and lives through animalistic emotions, and this is life. Aware-mind is used to fulfil the animalistic emotions. A child grows like this.

This aware-mind, to live the animalistic emotions without hindering the social setup, creates moral, ethics, culture, civilisation etc., on one hand and on the other hand developed new mind strategies like politics, trade, guiltiness, miserliness, insult, prestige, duty, adoration, tension, seriousness, betrayal, ego, exploitation, lie, rumour, drunkenness, depression, slavery, hesitation, madness, going astray, laziness, obsession, hypocrisy etc., to fulfil the animalistic emotions.

Small stream of humans, by chance or by accident or by coincidence or by whatever reason, whose awareness were not get affiliated fully with the storage collected by the stand point of “I”, discovered, contributed immensely to the humanity by way of dance, paintings, music, sculpture, drama, poetry, stories, science, logic, language, medicine, reasoning, maths, time, etc., etc., which are all born out of increase in awareness. They have also grown to human feelings like love, friendship, humour, celebration, adventure, wonder, beauty, sharing, understanding, creativity, responsibility, relaxation, maturity, silence, discipline, cleanliness, religiousness, gratitude, romance, etc.,

OK. Now, the magic of awareness or mystery of awareness.

When a child gets an animalistic emotion and the society around is not allow it to live, then 2 possibilities are before the child.

First, through the mind, the animalistic emotion takes shape of another animalistic emotion which may be accepted in the society. For example if anger is not allowed, the child started crying.

Or take the shape of the worst new strategies discovered by human mind like politics, betrayal, depression etc., which are workable in the society. For example anger becomes self pity and depression. Then the child expresses this emotion to somebody or to the society. If expression is not possible in any case or big danger is involved in the expression, the child suppresses the emotion and learn hypocrisy.

In this case, it goes deep inside and become a volcano, which is waiting to erupt. In case of throwing to somebody, it gets the retaliation immediately or the other become an enemy either openly or secretly according to his personality, the social face, the ”I”.

The 2nd possibility is, when a child gets an animalistic emotion and the society around is not conducive to live it, the child is not converting that into another animalistic emotion or to a worse trick developed by mind, but instead become simply aware of the animalistic emotion and bear it in its awareness. This can happen if the child is not developed a ‘running mind’ or a strong “I”. In this state the magic or mystery happens. The whole energy in the animalistic emotion is slowly transferred to awareness and awareness gets increased. On the other hand the animalistic emotion gets reduced and at one stage disappears completely.

You can do catharsis of OSHO, which is a process of throwing out the suppressed emotions with awareness and without the standpoint of “I”. This also increases your awareness instantly.

Also with the growth in awareness, the animalistic emotions can also be used as a tool to live securely in the society. Awareness becomes your being. ‘Running mind’, stand point of “I”. both become tools. Also with the increase in awareness, many human qualities start appearing.

The human qualities have a quality that they connect with you to the existence around and so you never lose energy in expression, instead from existence you get back more energy and this increases your awareness more. But you should be careful of animalistic human society, because in this society the individuals live and react according to their personality or the “I” image given by the society.

From human qualities, your awareness grows further and your “I” becomes less, because the need to use “I” becomes less in a real human society, in a real state of happiness and humour.

With your increase in awareness, you expand more, connected with existence more, and at one point your awareness explodes beyond the boundary of the body-mind conditioning and your awareness merges with the universal awareness.

You can say that the domination of the brain over the body collapses at one point and your body becomes free from the “I” of aware-mind as well as the unconscious-mind. Your body starts functioning completely from its own unconscious-mind it has. There is an unchanging, unaffected, awareness in and around. Your brain also functions but not running non-stop, unstoppably. It won’t develop identifications, attachments and “I” and won’t run behind them madly and for that won’t try to change the body, won’t tries to change the others around and won’t tries to change everything around. The Brain and Body both work under awareness, the cosmic awareness.

OSHO'S CONTRIBUTION TO HUMANITY

Osho is an intellectual giant, great orator, ferocious reader, cute businessman, lover of luxury and comfort, very mischievous, very individualistic, a spiritual researcher, inventor of new meditation techniques, very strong atheist, strong naturalist and many more may be. What are all I remember this moment I have mentioned?

But what is his biggest contribution to humanity. There is something like that is there for sure. Because he is the only person who is impressing the humanity
continuously for the last 5 decades and more miraculously without any big organizational setup like religion or cult or lot of branches with centralised head office. Moreover, the people particularly the youth are behaving his way or turning his way, even without consciously knowing it. The youths are more enjoying, less serious, more scientific, less believing, more free, more adventurous, less bonded, less committed to family organization, more moving, less bothered about the past, and more may be.

My understanding is that OSHO is not creating a way or creating the path. Instead he lived as the first new man and lived as a forerunner of the coming world of new humanity. He never claims a new path but he claims a new way or new approach towards the life available.

He never interested to change anything outside. This very Body is the Buddha and This very Earth is the Heaven – is his approach.

So what is so special about him and his contribution?

That is, he proclaims and lived a life, which has a profound new approach, unknown to humanity up to now, and up to now no avatar, no prophet, no philosopher, no thinker, no religion, no school of thought, no master of enlightenment, nobody had ever even imagined.

That is, Humans can live the life from birth to death, all climates of life, whether it is sorrow, pain, death, disease, accident, loss, failure, insult, hurt, humiliation or it is joy, success, victory, benefit, wealth, comfort or anything coming in life or happening in life, with a mood of rejoicing, yes, anything in life, but there is no reason why you are not rejoicing, this is his greatest contribution. What is wrong in death or suffering? They are the salt of life, the opposites are not opposites but complementaries in life. Without night what is day and without hot what is coolness. Without anger how you enjoy love? Without insult how you see your ego? So everything is helpful and so everything should be rejoiced, should be celebrated. Life has to be approached with a sense of humour.

Rejoicing the whole life, celebrating everything, every moment, every happening is possible for the human. Only the wrong psychology is the hindrance. The psychology of the past is based on fear and greed for exploitation and without scientific knowledge. A new psychology is possible. A rejoicing, a celebrating, a humorous psychology is the healthy psychology.

With this HE lived and with HIM a new man with a new psychology starts. A lot has to be done in every level of society, in every level of growth from the day of birth of a child, but still it is coming and OSHO is the proof. Humans can live the whole life with a sense of Humour and celebration.

What is point of guilt or complex or sad or angry or afraid.

It is foolish. It is all rubbish. It is all garbage of the past. Throw out all.
Rejoice the life. Rejoice means enjoy with deep rootedness in existence.
Or enjoy without mind and with awareness of you. Celebrate your existence with the existence.

For nothing you have to worry. What is the point? You are not the controller of existence, so what can you do except worrying. Stop this stupidity. And also you don’t know who controls the existence, so what can you do. Simply rejoice the opportunity. If you are limited you are limited, that’s all. Live your body, mind, heart and spirit. That’s all you can do. Living completely, totally, living your senses, your intelligence, your feelings and your spirit is rejoicing.

Then, with this way of life, with this approach of life, a great creativity will born out of you, a great adventure will born out of you, a beauty, a grace, an ecstasy, a deep silence, a rootedness in witnessing will flow out of you.

You naturally want to go more deep into existence, want to participate more with nature and for that you will search ways and means. And you will move naturally towards meditation, silence and compassion.

The world and humanity should live with great rejoice, with great sense of humour, hand in hand.

Throw all old and burn it. Forget the past. Be clean and live with clarity of this moment. Rejoice you and the existence around you. You and existence are not two. You are small existence, a cut vegetable piece but having the same taste. That is the mother and you are a child. So living with mother, what is there to worry? Whatever it brings or gives is good for you. So rejoice the life. Let go and celebrate let go. Accept and rejoice the acceptance. Be choice less and enjoy that open sky. Leave the stand point of ‘I’ and enjoy that freedom. Look at you and around, enjoy the life with a sense of Humour.

This is completely wild and new and fresh approach to the whole of humanity.

This is the psychology of OSHO, the new man, the new man he named ZORBA THE BUDDHA, I call ZORBUDDHA, the upcoming youth.

This newly defined psychology, defined by his very living that way, is the biggest contribution of OSHO to the Humanity.

All of you i welcome to join to live this way. This needs guts, great cleansing, throwing all past rubbish, sharp intelligence, creativity and living every moment. This is not impossible but very much possible.

Conscious Love,
Sidd.