Dear
friends,
You are
happy inside. Your child or servant broke a glass or slip the tea cup on your
dress. What is your action? You say simply it is ok and you continue in your
happy mood. You are able to see that the thing happened is not done voluntarily
but an accident. But if you are angry or in stress you start barking and
shouting.
Another
example i want to give. If the neighbour’s child becomes sick and you see that
they are worrying then you tell them it is nothing to worry and will go away in
a few days. You give a discourse that the fever is a symptom of the body
showing that it is working on something and we have to support it. It is common
and just don’t feed him and let him starve a little and it will help
tremendously. You tell to your wife that they are worrying too much and this
kind of attachment is not good for them and the child both. But if you child is
slightly sick, you rush to the most famous hospital in the town. What happens?
Mind is a
reasoning tool. If you allow it then it explains both of your reactions as
perfect and it will throw the reason for your actions only outside. In the
first case, it will explain that even though you know it is not their mistake,
they will become more careful by your shouting. In the second case, even though
you know that there is nothing serious, it is always good to have a check up.
Basically
mind is doing only this. You live your life from the inside and mind is used to
give an appropriate explanation according to the need or question arising
outside. You have many minds or many stand points or many masks or many masters
or many conditionings in your brain. Even when one mind is objecting, the other
comes out with an explanation. But the reality is that your emotions rule you.
So mind is a
lawyer you created in your brain to protect your actions arising out of your
emotions. So if you really want to understand life or understand you or
understand your problems, then you have to see inside. Living the inside is
your life. Outside world is only matter and only you, from your inside give the
meaning and convert it into life. A bike is a bike. But when the moment you
bought it, it is not the same bike to you. For others it is same, but for you
it is changed. The relationship, the outlook, the stand point has changed the bike.
All our life
is only an expression of our emotions and our entire world outside is only our
emotionally projected connections. It doesn’t mean that there is no outside
world. There is. But you don’t see that as it is. For a doctor, a patient is
only a human body and the same patient for you may be your father, mother,
child or somebody very important. When he suffers of pain, the doctor is not
affected, but you are affected. This individual world is an illusion or MAYA,
created by your emotional projections only.
The animals
only have this world, the world of illusion and they have no possibility to
know the real world. But human’s have. And this we call awareness, the special
quality of human. And this is the human suffering. He is not ignorant and at
the same time he is not free from this illusion.
So trying to
solve the problems of inside by the outside means only is not right. This is
what the west has tried, by science, by technology, by accumulating wealth by
robbery from other nations or people. But this doesn’t solve the human problem.
They are in a deeper mess. Psychotherapy becomes the highest earning profession
in the west. Here simple astrologer does that work for a very small fee of 50
or 100 rupees. Science or logic is useful to create a certain comforts for the
humanity, to make him free from the basic needs like food and shelter. But more
than that, your world is emotionally your own linked world and that is created
from your inside.
In the east,
we have neglected completely the science and logic because of the understanding
that the world is a projection of inside. But only the individual worlds are
projections and there is a real world and there are real needs of the body. In
the peak of wealth and abundance, India stops to take care of the real world
and real needs, because there is so much. The only thing to focus is to go
inside and find solutions. This is where the west is standing now. But because
of this attitude, India is enslaved for 2000 years, become poor and this
affected the life and slowly the search of inside becomes a hypocrisy and
phony.
That is why
OSHO synthesize both. He says be a zorba the Buddha. That is, take care
of your needs and create comforts, use the outside life experiences, to live
and to explore your inside. Your inside is your real life. Your body needs are
not your life, they are just compulsions, and there is not much juice in it.
The real life is living your inside, so the real problems, deeper problems are
also only there.
To
understand that our life is really or in depth is the life of our inside is the
first step towards spirituality. Now how to be free inside, like how we become
free from the outside needs, is the exploration of spirituality. The same
methodology of science and logic, by which we become free from the outside
needs, is not workable in the realm of your inside. There the situation is
totally different.
You have to
grow from needs to art, a person for whom the art becomes more valuable or the
artistic life becomes more valuable than the life of needs. Then from artistic
way of living, you can grow to spiritual way of living.
This journey
is the pilgrimage and this journey itself is a celebration. This journey itself
will bring the well being, wonderous world and joyous life to this earth.
Let us join
this dance and celebration.
Love,
Sidd.